and this is what i fear to know.
knowing that my ability to think more creative, crazy, unique, and unusual less than before.
really afraid that i'll lose my way to be adventurous person.

dan itu yang gw rasain sekarang.
entah kenapa, makin lama gw hidup disini, terpisah dgn para goblin lainnya, gw jadi selalu berpikir realistis. dan asal tau aja ya, be realistic is really bore. And pathetic.
realistic makes you want to yell 'Stop, it's enough'.
and then u can reach the peak that u want.

and then, GAME OVER.

Mumpung gw masih belom bener2 game over. gw pengen menata ini semua.
menelaah, apa yg bikin gw jadi seperti ini.
kaya ga punya soul. Gila, benar2 gila.
numb, petrified, freeze,....
Seperti lo ngerasain sakit yang amat sangat tapi lo ga bisa mengekspresikan rasa sakit lo, bahkan teriak pun ga bisa. nyesek cuy....

tolong, kembalikan semua kegilaan gw yang membuat gw bahagia.